down with the ship

mood: nervous-excited
music: "down with the ship" by the Damnwells
status: bored as hell


i'm nervous-excited about life. i call it nervous-excited because i can never tell the difference between the two of them. my tummy hurts from all the emotion. i find myself falling in love with things. it's weird. i think i'm just lonely. i get too excited when someone talks to me or if i listen to a song, or see a picture, or watch a movie. something to keep my mind off things.
sometimes i think, and i wish, that i had a curable illness. not like the cold, but something more severe and almost lethal. i don't necessarily want to die, i just want something to make me want to live.