i'm sick

there is so much drama, i hate it. i wonder sometimes who i've become and how it happened. i miss the friends that i used to have. senior year, well the latter half, was so much more pleasant than the past two years. and what's worse is that i don't think i can escape this little world of mine.
it's hard not having friends to trust. so what do i do? i am equally untrustworthy. i can't believe a single word that almost anyone says as sincere. and it has completely changed who i am. i was never like this. i miss the friends that brought out the good in me, not the bad.
i know, i can't completely blame everyone else. its my fault.
i miss my friends in Clarke County. I miss my friends from VCU.
now, sadly, some of my friends I couldn't care less about. i feel used by them, so what's the point?

who do i trust? i used to be so trusting, and where has it brought me?
i need new friends.